"There are no true endings, only everlasting beginnings" -Dieter F. Uchtdorf
Oh My Sweet Girl,
Today was the day I have been dreading. Today we said goodbye to your remains. Your dad keeps telling me it isn't goodbye. We had a beautiful service for you. Your Gma Mimi said the opening prayer, and then your dad conducted. Then your Gpa Rob talked about Christ and The Atonement and eternal life. Then Gpa Bennett talked about how you will receive your body and how big of a blessing it is that we were able to be sealed and how we probably didn't realize how big of a blessing and comfort it would be to us. Then your dad dedicated the grave. After him, I read my letter to you. I was just glad I was able to get through it. Then your dad read part of his letter to you and shared his testimony of Christ and the ultimate sacrifice He made so we could see you and be with you again. Then your Gma Michelle said the closing prayer. We then had everyone write you sweet notes and while we were writing, we listened to the Octopus's Garden song by The Beatles. I told everyone the story about the song and it brought some happiness and laughter to us. Then Here Comes The Sun came on and it was just perfect. We started the songs again when we let the balloons go. It was pretty funny because when we first got there, your daddy put the balloons on the ground with your flowers and they started popping. The funny part is that it really scared your dad :) Then when we let the balloons go, we had to double up on some of the notes, so your grandparents' balloons were struggling to clear this field. Your Gma and Gpa Moffatt's balloon made it, but Gma and Gpa Bennett's didn't quite clear. It got stuck and eventually popped, but I'm sure you know what their note said :)
Oh my girl I love you. Leaving that cemetery was the hardest thing I've ever had to do. I have to keep reminding myself that it's not actually you that we left there. It felt as though we were leaving you there alone, and it is still too much to stomach. I looked inside your box many times before we finally left. I was sobbing as we were leaving and your Gpa Bennett said to go take some more time, and they would let us be alone with you. I sobbed as I laid on the green board they put over the hole they dug for you. I held your box and touched your flowers. I'm sure you heard my cries and pleas for you. I'm so sorry you had to see that. I just wanted to hold you forever and never let go. I wanted to take you home--even if it was just your remains. I hated the thought of saying goodbye--it still breaks my heart.
I know deep down, and I have to keep reminding myself that it is not goodbye. "There are no true endings, only everlasting beginnings" -Dieter F. Uchtdorf. I love you so much my sweet baby. I know you are with your Heavenly Father, and family who loves you. You are in the best possible place you could be. I know this. I love you and I miss you and I ache for you. I cannot wait for our sweet reunion in heaven. Please stay close my sweet girl, and your dad and I will continue to do our best. I will write you often, and I will think of you and miss you always. Thank you for the sweet memories you have given us. And thank you for all the love and guidance you have given us. We love you sweet girl, and we are so proud of you. Please send our love to your Uncle Grant and your Uncle Matt. We love you so so much and we cannot wait to see you again. I will be writing again to you soon. I love you sweet girl.
Always and Forever,