Hi my angel girl. How was your day? Your daddy and I got the house all cleaned and I did a lot of pieces today. I'm excited to start water coloring more. I ordered a set today and they should be here on Monday! Your daddy is so supportive and kind--he always tells me that everything looks amazing. I will often dismiss him but he doesn't like that. I have just loved practicing this new little hobby. I can't believe I have this notebook filled! I have absolutely loved writing to you every night. President Eyring said in a talk that he would write down events from that day where he saw God's hand, and I feel like writing to you every night has helped me do that. As I think back on what happened that day, I am reminded of the beautiful moments I had with you. Moments that may not have stood out at the time, but having the opportunity to reflect on it helps me to see how incredible it actually was. I hope I am seeing/feeling all of the moments you are giving me. If I've missed some, I promise to keep trying and do my best. Please keep sending them my angel girl. I love you so much honey. Sweet dreams, okay? Hugs and kisses. Love, your mommy
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Hi my sweetest baby girl. Today was a really good day at work--until the end--and then your daddy had another basketball game and they almost won! I'm almost done with Aunt Savanna's picture. I love the picture she chose. It's of her holding you and she just looks so happy. You have touched so many lives. Everyone who got to hold you that day is so lucky honey. You gave us all the most incredible experience. I've been feeling a little overwhelmed for a little while. I hope it goes away soon. I've loved painting. I did some more roses today with water color for my lesson with the beehives this Sunday. I wrote their names on the roses, and I think they actually turned out super cute. I hope the girls like them. I love you honey. Thank you for all the wonderful gifts you have given me, and continue to give me. Sweet dreams and hugs and kisses. Love, Mommy
Hi my sweetest girl. It seems like it's been longer than a day since I've written to you. I worked on some more water color pencil pieces. I think I want to try actual water color soon. I've been watching tutorials like every day and they make it look so easy. I'll keep practicing though, okay honey? I'm thinking of making a piece for Henrik. I'm not sure what though. And I need to find a cute little boy quote. Maybe you can help me with that? Send me some inspiration? You're the best honey. Your daddy started working on his book again tonight. He is such a great writer. I wish he knew how amazing he is. Maybe he just needs some nudging. Today we were watching a show and the mom was talking to her pregnant belly, saying that the babies would think their dad is the greatest. Your daddy turned to me and asked me if I thought you felt that way about him and I said "Absolutely. Of course she does." I've always felt that you two would have a special connection. He would be your go-to parent. And I absolutely love that. I love you honey. I hope you had a great day. Sweetest dreams and lots of hugs and squeezes. Love, Mommy
Hi my honey girls. Today was your daddy's first basketball game of the season and he is just the cutest coach! The kids definitely did their best and they never gave up. I loved seeing your daddy in his element. I started another water color tonight for your Aunt Savanna. I will have to see if she likes it. I was talking to a friend from work about how it's been so therapeutic to do the hand lettering and the water colors. All inspired by you my girl. I love you so much. I hope you had the best day! And maybe you cheered your daddy on tonight? I wish you could just be here and we could cheer him on together. Soon enough. You have sweet dreams, okay my girl? Hugs and kisses. Love, Mommy
Hi my sweetest baby girl. Last night I got thinking and I couldn't sleep so I just did it--but I set up an instagram account just for you! I called it lettersforlois. I am so excited! You were my inspiration behind hand lettering and now water color, so I decided to make a place where I can have my different creations. Tonight I tried water color pencils and I love them! They turned out super pretty and fairly easy to use. So I uploaded my first picture to your account--a floral wreath with your name in the middle. Oh honey, I hope you like it. It's been interesting to explore some of these different types of art because I've never considered myself artistic, but it's been so fun trying these new things out and seeing how I progress. Thank you for giving me the inspiration to try new things. All the quotes and different sayings have all been inspired by you. Winnie the Pooh is one of my favorites. And of course song lyrics that remind me of you. Especially "Octopus's Garden" and "Here Comes The Sun". I love you sweetheart. I hope you had a wonderful day. Sweet dreams and lots of hugs and kisses. Love, your momma
Hi my baby girl. How was your day? Today seemed like a very long day. Maybe it was just the whole weekend. We stayed in pretty much the entire day. Your daddy got his volvo ready to sell and then we went through all our random gift cards and ended up getting 2 free meals at Cafe Rio, and a cast iron skillet with a leftover gift card. Your daddy and I just talked and talked about future plans and what we want to accomplish. It was a really great night to have some undivided attention with your daddy. It's funny because last night as I was writing to you, I had the thought 'I haven't cried in a little while'. Then of course, when I laid down and started to let my thought wander, I started crying. It was the silent kind of tears, so I didn't think your daddy would notice (he even had ear buds in). But he knew. He said he can tell from my breathing. It's not that I'm embarrassed, I just don't want to burden him with my tears. But I always feel better when he knows. Every time. He just holds me. Sometimes he says something, but usually he is silent. Just what I need. How is it that your daddy can be so perfectly wonderful? I am thankful for him every day. And you too honey. Every day I am reminded of you--sometimes subtle and gentle reminders, and other times they are booming and undeniable reminders. I love you so much my girl. I hope you are full of happiness and love. I'm sure you are. Sweetest dreams my love. Hugs and kisses and lots of squeezes. Love, your mommy
Hi my sweetest girl. Your daddy and I stayed home from stake conference and spent the day hanging around. I worked a lot on my hand lettering. It's been super therapeutic. One of the instagram accounts I follow has a bible that has blank pages in it and she does her notes in hand lettering. I want to look into a Book of Mormon like that. I think that could be super helpful. My favorite thing to write is your name. Your name just flows so beautifully. I love the way all the letters in your name look together. I love you so much my girl. Sweetest dreams, okay? Hugs and kisses. Love, Mommy
Hi my angel girl. How was your day? Today your daddy and I went to help clean the church and then I went running. Then we had breakfast and we got the house all cleaned. It was a really nice day because we were productive, but we also got to relax and just hang out. Today was supposed to be the big day for my ovulation! I felt an overwhelming sense of love for your brother. I pictured talking to him and admiring all his tiny features. It was the first time that I have felt a genuine feeling of love for one of your siblings. Obviously I knew I loved them, but today it just felt real. It was a really tender experience and I am very grateful for it. I wonder what it's like for you up there. Do you just know everything that is going to happen? I'm just so curious, but I will try to take it as it comes, and be happy with little bits at a time. I love you honey. Sweetest dreams and hugs and kisses. Love, Mommy
Hi my angel girl. How are you? I miss you terribly. Work seemed to be extra crazy this week. I'm glad we made it through. Your daddy's not convinced that full moons affect the kids, but it does! And it was Friday the 13th on top of that! Haha your daddy is super skeptical, but maybe one day I can convince him. I love you honey. I listened to your song today on my way to get drinks for me and your daddy. I just love that song. And I was thinking about how incredible it is that we have so many wonderful things that remind us of you. I'm so grateful for all of them. I love you my sweet girl. Sweetest dreams and hugs and kisses. Love, Mommy
Hi my sweetest baby. How was your day? Today was a really interesting day with a lot of opportunities to reflect on the past and just feel waves of gratitude rush over me. I was able to talk about my past experiences (trials) and how they have helped me get to where I am. And then one of my good friends from my singles ward came home from his mission and it was good to talk to him and think about where I was at in that stage of my life. And how far I had come from other trials. It was just really interesting because as devastating as it has been losing you, I feel surrounded by light. The darkness and uncertainty that was there with other trials just hasn't been here. I thank you for that honey. You are my angel girl and I am at a loss for words to express how grateful I am for you. Oh honey I just love you and I love all the incredible experiences you have given me. I would much rather you actually be here, but thank you for providing those sweet moments. Sweet dreams my precious angel. Hugs and kisses. Love, your mommy
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