Hi my sweetest girl. How was your day? We had our baby shower today, and it went really well! Your sister definitely got spoiled. We have a lot of organizing to do, and I'm pretty overwhelmed, but I know it will work out. I got really nervous today because I hadn't felt your sister move for a while so I got a little panicky, but she's been moving a lot more, and your daddy found her heart beat. As we are counting down the days, I'm getting more and more nervous. My faith is definitely being tested right now. I love you so much my girl. I hope you had a wonderful day. Sweetest dreams ad lots of squeezes and kisses. Love, your mommy
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Hi honey girls. How was your day? Your daddy and I had a good day at work, and then we went to dinner with your Mimi and Susan. It was really sweet because Susan told us about her plans to make preemie clothes for babies who are born early, and she's calling it LA Preemie for Lois Amelia. Isn't that so sweet?! I love the impact you are making on so many people! And tomorrow is the baby shower! It's so crazy that it is actually here. I've felt like this is a big milestone for us to reach. I love you so much honey. Sweetest dreams and lots of squeezes and kisses. I miss you my girl. Love, your mommy
Hi sweetheart. How are you? Your daddy and I picked up your Mimi from the airport--my baby shower is in two days! Work was a little crazy today, but definitely not the craziest day I've had. And then your daddy had his softball games, but they lost the second game so the season is over. To be honest, I'm a little glad it's done. It has started to get really cold, and sitting on that bench was super uncomfortable. And the Capture Your Grief project starts on Monday. I'm excited to have it because it's all about acts of kindness and compassion. I'm thinking of sharing your Instagram. What do you think? I'd like to offer healing quotes or water colors to people. My only hesitation is the numbness in my arm and hand could be a hinderance. What do you think honey? Would you be okay with me sharing that? I love you so much my girl. I hope you had a wonderful day. Sweetest dreams and lots of love. Love, Mommy
Hi my angel girl. How was your day? Only one more month! Can you believe we are down to one month? My body has been a lot more achey, my right arm is numb, and today I noticed that my right foot and ankle are swelling more than my left. Haha it will all be worth it when we get to hold her. Is your baby sister a snuggler? Oh I sure hope so. And what is her name? I love you so much my darling girl. I hope you are enjoying your time and know that we love you so very much. Sweetest dreams my girl. Squeezes and kisses. Love, your mommy
Hi honey girls. How was your day? Work went well and I've started to kind of pull back so my para and the new para can get used to taking over. Tomorrow marks one month exactly until your sister's due date. And the Capture Your Grief project starts on Sunday. I decided to do it privately this year and just write my responses to you. what do you think honey? My arm as been aching a ton so I'm sorry this is short. I love you so much my girl. Sweetest dreams and lots of love. Love, Mommy
Hi honey girls. How are you? Today was a good day. We went to take more maternity pictures after work and I think they will be really sweet. We got some of my bracelet with your name on it and I think it will be very sweet. Then your daddy and I ate dinner and went to Costco, and then I cooked 6 pounds of hamburger to sort of meal prep. We also want to make a bunch of shredded chicken. Time is such a strange thing right now. We are counting down, and time is moving so quickly, and yet the idea of me holding one of my children seems so far away. I'm not sure how to explain it except that I can't actually imagine a reality where your daddy and I are raising a child on this Earth. I've wanted this for so long, it would be incredible to actually experience it. Why can't I have more faith honey? Why am I subconsciously preparing myself for another loss? I don't think I could survive. I wouldn't want to. Losing you was too much. I can't do it again. Your sister has been moving a lot which has helped ease my mind. I know I am my own worst enemy right now with my doubts and fears. I'm trying though. That's all I can do. I love you so so much my girl. Thank you for the strength you give me. Sweetest dreams angel girl. Hugs and kisses. Love, your mommy
And after we took pictures, we picked some red maple leaves. They will forever remind me of you. Hi my sweetest angel girl. How was your day? We went to church and then hung out at home for a while. Then we went to Gma and Gpa Bennett's for dinner. And goes what honey?? They got us that bike stroller/jogger that we wanted! We couldn't believe it. It's difficult to think that you should be in there with your little sister. But we will definitely get some great use out of it. I keep telling your daddy that we are doing spring training to get back into shape. And this will definitely help. We got our pictures back and I absolutely love them! It was pretty foggy so your daddy wants to try again. So tomorrow is round 2 of maternity pictures. We're getting so close honey. Wednesday marks exactly one month from your sister's due date. And Saturday is the baby shower. I can't believe it's here! I love you so so much honey. I hope you had a wonderful day. Sweetest dreams and lots of squeezes and kisses. Love, Mommy
Hi sweetheart. How was your day? Your daddy and I went to get breakfast and I love spending those moments with him when we don't have a schedule and we just get to relax. Then I went and got my hair done and I love it! I need to do it more than once a year :) Then your daddy and I went to get some maternity pictures taken. It was raining pretty hard so we're hoping they turn out okay. Then we got to go to dinner and come home and watch a movie and relax. And I got your blog all updated! I posted some pictures from your bday weekend--I loved that weekend honey. I hope that we always feel close to you--especially your birthday. The colors are starting to change and I am super excited. This time of year will forever remind me of you. And those red maple leaves--we'll have to go on some drives so we can find some. I love you so very much honey. I hope you had a great day. Sweetest dreams and lots of hugs and kisses. Love, Mommy
Hi honey girls. How was your day? Your daddy and I had a good day at work and then we went grocery shopping, made dinner, and laid around for the rest of the night. It was really nice. Tomorrow I get my hair done and then your daddy and I are taking maternity pictures. I'm so glad we had so many pictures with you. I wish we would have thought to do some maternity pictures earlier. I love you so much my girl. I hope you had a wonderful day. Sweetest dreams and lots of loves. Love, Mommy
Hi honey girls. Your daddy and I finished PTC tonight and then your daddy had a softball game. Tomorrow marks 35 weeks! Can you believe it? We can count down weeks on one hand! I got nervous today because I didn't feel your sister move a ton, but I drank a gatorade and she started kicking almost immediately. I was talking to your daddy about it, and even though we know babies are born healthy all the time, it seems crazy that it could happen to us. But how incredible would it be to actually bring your sister home and watch her grow? I have faith, and I try to remember the promptings I felt at Christmas. It seems like as we are starting to count down, my faith is getting shakier. I just pray that we make it through and that your sister gets here safely. I love you so much honey. Can you help me with my faith? I hope you had a wonderful day. Sweetest dreams and lots of squeezes and kisses. Love, your mommy
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